We are all mad here…If I think of it long enough I can trip myself out on my existence, my purpose and life in general. I always have all these random questions like why am I in this generation of selfish superficial people…why do I always feel like I am in a some sort of split reality? I isolate myself at times but as soon as I am social I see why I am the way I am. There is no depth in people, I don’t even know how to swim but I don’t like the shallow end haha. I am a person who likes to get deep and feel everything sometimes it is a blessing and a curse because I feel pain so deeply too. I feel the pain of others around me, I consider myself an introvert for sure I like to hang out with those who make me feel comfortable or those who I vibe with in some level spirituality, mentally etc. I distance myself from friends and the scene for so many reasons but never did I think that I would change my perspective on life the way I did, I do not even remember what I use to talk about think about or worry about before my awakening. Things were so meaningless to me I cared about the dumbest stuff compared to all that happens in the world. It is so hard to find people on the same frequency as you, so the journey feels so lonely. At times I wish I was still asleep so I can enjoy being ignorant cus the more you know the sadder you become. I feel like those who are woke are more prone to anxiety and depression because we see the world for what it truly is. I have big plans and a big vision but I feel so small I feel like it it is so close yet it is so far. I feel like I owe it to myself and to everyone who has supported me to become the best version of myself in every single aspect of my life, but to create you must destroy your old self as well destroy old habits and patterns replacing them with new ones. I get so many messages asking how I am so positive when in reality it takes a lot of effort for me to see the positive in things. Positivity is a mindset a mindset I need to train myself to acquire and get down. I still have moments where I let the negative thoughts win and I become my own worst enemy. There are times where I feel like giving up and going MIA but I know I started to share my journey so I should share all of it and be real about it, I am not always positive life does come trying to knock me down but thanks to every single person taking the time to read this I have more of a reason to stand up and fight for the life I know I can manifest for myself. I want my story to be proof that you can do anything you set your mind to, I want to connect with the souls of those who are wandering like me…thank you so much for vibing with me I have so much I want to do and I can’t wait to share my journey with all of you.
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